an unexpected phone call

The marker for Alex’s grave is in at the monument company, and the timing of this is completely unexpected.

I have been praying and hoping and yearning it would come in a month early and be placed before the first anniversary of Alex’s death.

Getting the call TWO months early was wholly unexpected. I hadn’t even started hoping it would be ready yet. I had not started processing that it was coming. I usually anticipate and prepare and overthink things in advance so that when a THING actually happens, I’m cool.

I wasn’t cool. I didn’t keep it together.

Although an answered prayer, I am emotionally spent, but so very thankful. I went to the cemetery today to see the foundation before the marker is placed. I took a video because it was a beautiful day and I wanted to capture the colors of the sky and trees and the sounds.